Dates
Dates dates dates. Carelessly I want to open my date book, close my eyes, and pick the day that my finger falls on. I know I can't choose that way though. Still, the day is coming. The three years of play time must come to a end, and soon a new chapter in my life begins. I am a bit nervous, a bit scared, most of all I am trying not to let the sadness of leaving this place enter too deeply into my heart. Like a plague, I fear that it will spread too quickly and the result, toxic. But I am getting a head of myself. This week is a week for lasts. Last class with these students, last class with those students. I am closing up shop and clearing out. Then what? The big question really. Then I will go and collect my sanity as I pick up my pay cheque and look for less shakey ground. I have a weird feeling, like a calm before the storm feeling. I am trying to rest in the silence.
Dates dates dates. Carelessly I want to open my date book, close my eyes, and pick the day that my finger falls on. I know I can't choose that way though. Still, the day is coming. The three years of play time must come to a end, and soon a new chapter in my life begins. I am a bit nervous, a bit scared, most of all I am trying not to let the sadness of leaving this place enter too deeply into my heart. Like a plague, I fear that it will spread too quickly and the result, toxic. But I am getting a head of myself. This week is a week for lasts. Last class with these students, last class with those students. I am closing up shop and clearing out. Then what? The big question really. Then I will go and collect my sanity as I pick up my pay cheque and look for less shakey ground. I have a weird feeling, like a calm before the storm feeling. I am trying to rest in the silence.
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