Change in snow
I have to wonder, now that winter is here. Snow finally on the ground. How unusually odd it is to get all the way to November before this breathing out. Right now I am waiting. Something I thought I knew, something I thought I was a branch of, is cracking. Chainsaw or bandage?
The deadlines keep pressing, and I seem to find a million other things to do with my time than what I should be doing (like writing this right now). My mind is whirling, like the snowflakes outside, and I can not concentrate on particles and adjectives.
The past week and weekend has been nothing but social. I feel like a social junky right now. People, I need people, more give me more. I have been able to spend time with 16 of my close friends here who I haven't seen in a really long time. And now I am starting to remember what being me with them is like. My heart melting while the ice is freezing. Down, the guards, down.
Love, it is here. Strength, yes, above all strength. Standing up for me has to be done carefully here, more of a bow than an upright celebration. But it needs to be done. A lesson.
Something a close friend told me, "all we control is our attitude, the rest we must leave to the universe, to trust, to love". Ah yes, is this what the twenties are all about?
Lessons and love. Let it snow!
I have to wonder, now that winter is here. Snow finally on the ground. How unusually odd it is to get all the way to November before this breathing out. Right now I am waiting. Something I thought I knew, something I thought I was a branch of, is cracking. Chainsaw or bandage?
The deadlines keep pressing, and I seem to find a million other things to do with my time than what I should be doing (like writing this right now). My mind is whirling, like the snowflakes outside, and I can not concentrate on particles and adjectives.
The past week and weekend has been nothing but social. I feel like a social junky right now. People, I need people, more give me more. I have been able to spend time with 16 of my close friends here who I haven't seen in a really long time. And now I am starting to remember what being me with them is like. My heart melting while the ice is freezing. Down, the guards, down.
Love, it is here. Strength, yes, above all strength. Standing up for me has to be done carefully here, more of a bow than an upright celebration. But it needs to be done. A lesson.
Something a close friend told me, "all we control is our attitude, the rest we must leave to the universe, to trust, to love". Ah yes, is this what the twenties are all about?
Lessons and love. Let it snow!
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